~Feels pain in my Heart again~ Day 1

Today...feeling awfully bad this morning to work...
I received sms from her but no longer needed my help... but it do help brighten my day a little bit...
Found out there is not much talking can be done with her when i'm in "misery" mood...
Instead of just typing words to wait for reply from her, i'll just add on few words at the end with "lolx...xD...swt...etc" for her to at least reply 1 word...

I don't know how to say...or interrupt when someone that i suspect is interested on her talking with her...
i can see...he sits very close to her...touch her hands...but, i have to act nothing...act did not saw it...
I'm moving on...but still..y i do still feel pain in my heart... why i still cares about her every little thing...

She can't eat kiwi, banana, or stuff have tiny seeds in it. Otherwise, she will need to go hospital
She cant eat spicy food much but she loves it...End up having diarrhea everytime she eats it... She deserve it!
She cant eat sweet stuff or else she will feel pain lower jaw part...juz only know it..
She can't walk properly (not obvious) due to last car accident backbone cracked..
She hates to meet people without make ups unless very closed frens..
She likes to stare people around whenever she had the chance.. (I spotted that all the time)
She will use her hand cover her mouth when she laughs.. (i know she want cover her teeth =D)
She will play her hair after using phone or when looking/reading something on the phone... (sometimes only)
She don't like people give gifts to her... (she don't like to feel owing other people << claimed by herself)
She don't like big surprises where she have a weak heart to bear the huge excitement.
She likes to jogging most of the time...or else hang out with friends (fav hobby)...
She dislike people misjudge her for thing she never meant for it... (same as my housemate)

And there's a lot more i can write..but, i can't.....i scared i will step in more deeper..

Since she moved on, i shall move on too...she is happy where she are and i don't want be her "happy spoiler"... I love looking at her when she smile especially laughing...always i do~

~Let me bear the pain alone and let her shine her happiness~