It's all about her~

It's been long time didn't write my blog. Well~~~ here I am again...writing out my deepest thinking right here...at my blog. Wonder anybody follow my blog especially "her"...

Ever since my last updates on my blog...I did not really take any actions to....well, be her bf or my gf. I don't have the guts to do that. Because...I think too much (@_@)"

Seeing her appearances and mindset, she probably won't have any interest on young adults like me. well, i'm just guessing. Everyday or maybe every hour, she will have at least few guys who tries to get close to her, find ways to interact with her. I believed their ultimate goals is >>> woo her to be his gf. I believe every guy would do that. It's a standard process to get to it! I tried to...but i got several bad feedbacks from her especially... a "cold shoulder" to me. Maybe she can't find any interest or anything on me....Again, i'm guessing it as well...

After several weeks of cool off by isolating myself interact with her, the ultimate root cause for this is on me. I think too much! Do too much thinking and yet a bad thinkings that makes me sulking in front of her... ( = . =") arrghhh.... To prevent this happening again, i made a conclusion! I need a change~!

Because of her..i felt misery, upset, gloomy, anger, all of the bad emotions that we could name of...The root cause of all this are >>> Bad mindset! And i know by showing my bad emotions to her, i scared her away more.. or other way round..Makes her dislike me more... Well, i'm guessing it again because she is a good in covering her real emotions...i mean very good~ But, i still managed to "caught" her cover up although she refuse to reveal her true emotions..

Back to main topic, I decided to change..How?I found a book: How to make yourself happy? ...Oh my~ that suits me definitely!! I read the book and somehow it works fine to me...Now i'll just need to keep practicing it to keep my mood high up.. People prefer facing happy people than sad people. Don't you agree? So, i train myself to be happy all the time and also few techniques to dissolve unhappy feeling quickly.

Although i managed to keep myself happy, I dun noe whether is she happy or not. After i started isolation method, she and I did not keep in touch frequently as usual. I felt a "gap" between us..I dun noe when it created and felt it's getting bigger and bigger....till we didn't even face to face eventhough we sit opposite together.

Could this be she and I really cannot be together?? Or she also felt the same feelings to me and yet shy to talk to me? Who knows~!! But, she doesn't care much about me at all.. Like recently i injured my arms and she did not cares about it. Just like did not know of it at all... Well, from this i think she really don't care about me at all... I believe so...

Well...I'm not gonna stop being friends with her due to her insensitive behavior...I'll keep in touch and cares her whenever i can...because i still like her...

~What a Busy Friday~

Today is Friday~~ Supposed to be very relaxing~~ do some research...read some Microsoft readings materials..to spend my Friday work day...Mana tau~~~ ( = _ = )"....Got emergency task to do...

Haizz...make my Friday work mood all crashed =(... luckily i still managed to finish off and set my way to Midvalley meet my dad on time ( -^.^- )...*coz my dad hate people late* =D

Today is my father's belated special day...suppose is Wednesday celebrate his birthday but he busy can't make it and postponed to today.. lucky went well tonight...managed to eat dinner...watch movie...chit chat at Starbucks... =D

After that, 2nd round yum cha with my beloved colleagues at puchong..=) So, today i feel very fulfilling and happy about it...

And also.....I managed to chit chat with her today.. (^.^)....but hor, she seems like reluctant to talk with me...who knows~ maybe i too sensitive gua~~ Dun care anymore le~~

She is cute still...but, sometimes i can see she will silence for a moment while me and others are chit chating gila-gila...Maybe that's her true side of herself?? hmm...i wonder~

~My feelings stays still~

No matter how hard i try to convince myself "I do not like her~..she is just a one of my passby-er in my life.."...
My feelings towards her still strong and i can't help myself to peep on her whenever she's here...

Say me selfish or watever you want to call me....i have my own reasons to stop pursuit my lovely nicole~

I'm sorry Nicole...perhaps you didn't even know that i liked you..I'll d like remain it that way till i sort my problem out first.... Let me quietly look at you....see you smile....

Can't help it myself to grab you in my arm and say " Let me protect you from now on and love you with all my heart~ I love you"

What happened to me???

Did i changed? changed alot?....i kept asking myself...

i found out i do things that i don't usually do....why is it I behave this way??

I can't behave normal in front of her... what i can do is...ignore her? avoid her?

I can't think anymore...i choose to avoid instead...

Sorry my love... i can't move forward where i have my own reasons behind...

~Her B@D W33K~

Working....day and night... 8:30am to 5:30pm working hours..but, normally will need work more hours.. like her... she work almost 12 hours a day...and yet...still need to go back office work when got calls from terrible users at Prague... so sad to hear she work on holidays even weekends..='(

She look exhausted...stressed out...all because of idiot UAT stuff...stupid Prague user!!! Please be considerate to us where we do not work outside working hours ok!!!!! Geram!!!
I wish to help her..but i dun noe how to do her work...~~
I wish i could just make her day with laughter...but, i'm not a good joker..~~
I wish i could just be with her whenever she feels bored/stress... but i could only do is look at her and say "relax...man man do~....etc" which does not help her at all~~
I wish i could bring her foods when she feels hungry...but i don't know what foods she hunger for~~
I felt myself so useless at the sudden.... (=.=") but, at least i tried to "be with her" by chatting over MOC till she finished her job and go back home (^.^)..
I sms her whenever i free...to let her know at least...there is a person who cares about her condition... :)

I hope she can get through this week.... I wish to see her pretty smile again which is my happy medicine every morning. =)

~Finally saw her today~

Dunno how to describe this feelings...finally i got chance to meet her today...not intentionally, just that coincident needed her help take me home.. and she say yes~~

At first i thought she would find excuses to reject my request..because i thought she been avoiding to talk/meet me all the while. But i'm wrong. She was actually busy...very busy till need OT this week.

She looked more pale..not enough sleep look..dark circles getting darker and bigger... seeing her like that i feel sour in my heart.. wanted to cheer her up and she claimed she will be ok and straight sleep after reach home.

Tonight ate dinner with her...face to face... she looked at the big screen watching movies...i looked at her..and i smile..no matter how pale she looked...she always looked cute to me.. especially when her eyes look up... so kawaii~~ (^_^)

I felt her reaction a bit weird today...she looked soo "paiseh" in front of me... dun noe correct or not..but i'm sure she behave differently compare to when we first few times meet each other... I don't know why and don't want to know...because this could make both of us more paiseh to meet each other.

I rather being this way where we could ask each other out yc/dinner than making both of us paiseh cannot meet together...


I'll remember her tonite's kawaii face for long long time... (^.^)...

~Feels pain in my Heart again~ Day 1

Today...feeling awfully bad this morning to work...
I received sms from her but no longer needed my help... but it do help brighten my day a little bit...
Found out there is not much talking can be done with her when i'm in "misery" mood...
Instead of just typing words to wait for reply from her, i'll just add on few words at the end with "lolx...xD...swt...etc" for her to at least reply 1 word...

I don't know how to say...or interrupt when someone that i suspect is interested on her talking with her...
i can see...he sits very close to her...touch her hands...but, i have to act nothing...act did not saw it...
I'm moving on...but still..y i do still feel pain in my heart... why i still cares about her every little thing...

She can't eat kiwi, banana, or stuff have tiny seeds in it. Otherwise, she will need to go hospital
She cant eat spicy food much but she loves it...End up having diarrhea everytime she eats it... She deserve it!
She cant eat sweet stuff or else she will feel pain lower jaw part...juz only know it..
She can't walk properly (not obvious) due to last car accident backbone cracked..
She hates to meet people without make ups unless very closed frens..
She likes to stare people around whenever she had the chance.. (I spotted that all the time)
She will use her hand cover her mouth when she laughs.. (i know she want cover her teeth =D)
She will play her hair after using phone or when looking/reading something on the phone... (sometimes only)
She don't like people give gifts to her... (she don't like to feel owing other people << claimed by herself)
She don't like big surprises where she have a weak heart to bear the huge excitement.
She likes to jogging most of the time...or else hang out with friends (fav hobby)...
She dislike people misjudge her for thing she never meant for it... (same as my housemate)

And there's a lot more i can write..but, i can't.....i scared i will step in more deeper..

Since she moved on, i shall move on too...she is happy where she are and i don't want be her "happy spoiler"... I love looking at her when she smile especially laughing...always i do~

~Let me bear the pain alone and let her shine her happiness~

~I Still F33L HurT~

Time flies~~~very slow...i still feel hurt in my heart...

No matter how much time i put on work, my heart still...feel lonely..

I thought of listening radio...chat with friends... spend time think about work.. could help me fade my sorrow. But it didn't. The more i cover... the more pain i feel.....

I do not know why i felt pain in my heart... I only know i will feel the pain when:

She did not reply my messages~
She did not reply me in moc/fb chat~
She refuse my invitation yet she accept my friend's invites~
She suspect me will do something harm/bad which i'm not~
She avoid looking/talk to me~

I thought i could let it go if i say to myself: it's ok~ it will passed away..~......But, it does make me more and more pain that i barely could cover it among others...especially in front of her...

She will move on~ That's what she has decided to do so...So, i do move on too~

爱说不出口的痛比刀割伤的痛还要再痛再苦~

~I Have Decided~

After a long discussion with many friends, close friends....I have decided...
I decided no matter how hard it is...or how many rejections i received...I WILL STILL CONTINUE TO DO IT!!!
I WILL NOT GIVE UP!! REJECTIONS??! NO PROBLEM~! IT'S OK!! I WILL KEEP ON GOING~!!!

I WILL STRUGGLE  FOR SUCCESS!! I BELIEVE MYSELF I CAN DO IT!!!

Same goes to my target girl >> Woofie~...or should i say it clear Nicole Lee...I confess that I Like Her and I will pursuit her...I Dare to say... I love her smile..even though she do her ugly faces~~ I won't feel a bit of disgusting~ But i found out she is adorable in that way!!! As what Bruno Mars songs : Just The Way You Are!

Nicole~ Even though how bad you looked at yourself, or even felt your face look much older than your real age, or how weak is your body are...from what i can see is ....that's the way you are, and i love the way you are. I don't know how you felt about me, but i'm very sure that i like you... and i wish i could be your only one and give me a chance to allow me have you be my only one.

A Normal Sunday

Feel nothing.....do nothing.....think nothing....only relax-ing and lazying in mind....
Ok...i lied! I do think about woofie everyday....bit by bit....
I don't know whether i saw in internet is true or not... O type blood only have 3 minutes temperature...>.<"
As well for relationship, she seems doesn't have any intention of trying to give a try on new relationship...

I scared when it gets delays longer...i will....

~Wednesday~ I have this strange Feelings~

It's Wednesday~~ My feelings towards Woofie getting stronger and stronger...day by day, hours by hours...it just getting stronger everyday... I don't know why i have this such stronger feelings towards her..

It's kinda like..."something" are suffocating me!! in my very chest!!...It makes me so uncomfortable everyday..Can SOMEONE HELP ME??!!!! What is this called?? Why AM I HAVE SUCH STRANGE FEELINGS?? AND IT'S GETTING STRONGER and STRONGER~~!!!!...

I tried to suppress this weird feelings in many ways...listen musics, concentrating on my work, chit chat with friends whenever i can, do research on something that makes me thinking... BUT, ALL DOESN'T WORK AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It makes me so drowsy....

The ONLY way i tried and it does really make this strange feelings goes away... which is i saw Woofie replied me no matter in MOC, FB chat, SMS, Calls or by just seeing her face 2 face. This uncomfortable feelings just vanished in a second!! No matter in what format, as long i see something related to Woofie.. i will be feeling better... From that on, i knew... this strange feelings is what people says....Missing a person...which a person that i cares the most! I FALL IN LOVE TO Woofie?!..

I can't help suppress this feeling...it's like...if i don't get to see her even just one day, it will get stronger and stronger....PLZ~~ WHO CAN HELP ME TAKE THIS FEELINGS AWAY FROM ME!!!????
I REALLY WANT TO SAY OUT LOUD THAT...>>>>>>>> WOOFIE!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!...

it's really getting harder for me to act normal...even when it's in front of her. :'(
Woofie~ I didn't know that i needed you so much... It suffocates me day by day without you around...

~Badminton Day~

It's badminton day~~!!! Wooohhooo!!! But hor...Woofie asked me to fetch her go work oh... (O.O)...i shocked liao...because normally she very independent de...no matter how she also will do it herself.. that's one of my opinion towards her la (^_^).... but then, i dun think so much lar... because she don't know i like her ma...maybe she just simply ask for a favor occasionally ler?.. I scared think too much.. and then expect too much... at the end, hurt more if wrongly think (>.<)....

Today whole day...macam normal.. saja...chit chat, eat lunch...u talk, i talk, macam tak ada aper saja... so normal... (^_^)

But then, tonite i really sot jor..go and write her all those weird weird words to woofie..and she kept saying me drunk liao izzit...(=.=")... How i wish...i could let her know...i willing choose you be my gf (*.*) no matter how you are...

~New H@1R StYL3~

Hi again! today...erm..(suppose to be Monday 10 October 2011)...i drive myself to work because need to go somewhere after work. As you can see the title, it's about new hair style.. but is not me... is Woofie!! ^_^

This morning as usual.. i invited some people eat breakfast together at company cafeteria. When she came in, she look different...new hair style..she make curly hair on lower part..i looked at her...she look very sweet to me.. especially together with lovely smile =) ... She made my day!

I hope she could stay as this look for longer time.. So, i could see her sweet look more... But, she lazy to style it ^_^"....i understand that..need spend alot time on styling it... well, no matter how she change.. she still look pretty to me... Maybe this is called "love is blind" ? (^_^)v

Keep up the good work Woofie!! wish u have happy day everyday~

~Miserable Saturday~

Hi~ It's me again...

i tell myself lots of times... "she is busy, maybe didn't listen her phone~" ..."she might be having fun chit chat with her frens and din aware there is a call or sms"...so, i kept waiting her reply all day....

Today i learnt...thinking a person you love is sweet...but, missing the person is painful....and i feel miserable of unable to attend her convo + not even able to get my flower in her hands...i so hate myself for being such a tool!

And yet...she say "nvm, no need buy present for me because i din buy present for you also when you convo"
I buy present not because i want you give me present also...is i just want to gift you something that comes truly from my heart. I have no intention of getting one back at all.... Am i this kind of person in everyone's eyes?

I have no idea....

~Silly Mistakes~

Today it was Woofie~ (her nickname i give (^.^)...)...convo. But, i din managed to go...because they came out early and i thought is 12pm (=.=")....So stupid am i~~ Somebody's convo i should come early even is 2 or 3 hours earlier..Aih~

What i can do is sms her wish her congratz~~ that's all i can think of...(>.<)....i bet she is having fun with her friends by now....eating lunch...go hang kai....watch movie (maybe~) through all day long. Well, i'm not there with her... That's the problem =(

But then, think again.. she will be happy without me around because....i know none of their friends and i don't want her to entertain me only and forget her friends...i don't want that happened... I shall wish her again face 2 face next Monday then (^.^)v



From this, it makes me think that whether i still compatible with her or not for the rest of the life.... she is fun, outgoing, active and loves to play...while me is outgoing, active, also love to play...but..boring! i can sit there face 2 face dun talk for 1 hour...i think my brain some part which is learn how to talk more already cacat or malfunctioned. (=.=")zzzzz......

i so hate myself being this way...hate myself for being so...quiet...so...dumb...so stupid....and always smile and laugh only...(>.<")

I Fall in Love to one very Sp3ci@L G1rL~

Hi~ I'm back to blogger again =)
Normally every time i write blog, this means i have something that couldn't find someone to share with. So, i use writings to spill it out...

Today i go work..as usually fetch my cute girl (actually i treat her is my little sister (^.^)....) together...but, she have to stay late working. End up her sister come fetch her back.. As for me? Today is Thursday...Badminton day!! i go badminton...even though my best partner Edmund din come play mens double with others =(....

But...that's not the point... As long she got come, i'll come as well... Becoz she is the reason kept me going...
Let's call her NL..(nick name)...Although she is not pretty, but she caught my eyes. (*.*)...Allow me briefly intro how this become ya ;)

Firstly, i remember this year she join in my company.. i still havent seen her face before but everybody says she is a hottie... but, it does not make me curious..because i know that time i'm fat and not leng chai..so why bother go curious about it? 1 month later, one of my colleague brought her into our GT( Graduate Trainee) gang...that time i'm like the King of GTs (haha!!) manage the GTs informally... By the time i saw her, i stood there for 5 secs...that where she caught my eyes.. But, i din go near and get to know her well coz i'm shy and feel ashamed of how i look...so, i slowly follow the gang...slowly get her attention by people introduce me. From that on, i slowly take action to know her...understand her...familiarize her favs things....

Few months passed already, finally get to know she wasn't actually this slim as it were before.... (O.O) that time it caught my attention and so i urge for an answer! She said she been rejected by someone and hurt very badly. From that on, she went jogging till the slim body as it looks right now... Their frens also shocked seeing her become a hottie....At that point, i ask myself....she can do it..why i cant? So, i have made a serious decision at that time.... I want my slim body back!

Starting from 1st week September, i joined a program called "TRA" (The Right Approach) << name sounded very logic to me =) so i took it.. 3 months TRA program and it guaranteed me a slim body with no bounced back assurance. But, the TRA program require me not to eat my favourite foods =( (McD, Dominos, KFC and etc)... it was hard at first...but, it was she... NL who kept advising me how to keep fit...tell me dun give up...from that on, i felt i already love this special kind girl... =) So, everyday with her around...she kept me moving forward...she is my life booster to me...

But, i don't dare to ask more than that.. i want her be by my side...to take care her...love her... There is one day...her mood is very down...she find me...and share...that time i was happy..happy that i could share her sorrow, share her sadness...being part of her to deal the problem...i wish i could share everything i can with her for the rest of my life.....no matter good or bad...i just want her be by my side...that's all i wish for...

I know...i could not have that wish come true...i dun dare to say out my true feelings to her...i scared she reject and friend also cannot be anymore... I dun noe how she thinks..how she felt towards me...so, i decided that...make sure her face is fill with smile... whenever she laughs or smile...i will be happy for her...even though if she got bf , as long both of them are happy together.. i will wish them happily together forever...

That's what i can wish for her....Still i wish for the best to be with her if possible..
I will love her with my full heart~
I will bear her sorrow together~
I will share her everything i got just to make her happy everyday~
I will take care her no matter what happens~
I will not leave her alone when she needed me the most~
I will promise her to be by her side always~
And lastly~ i will say "i love you" every time i sees her

Tuesday 5 April 2011 - 是星期二。。

大家好~~我有来这写我的经历咯~~！！^.^v
日子照常地过，一样地上班下班。。吃饭。。上上facebook。。然后睡觉。。每天都在过同样的生活。。有人会无聊。。有人会喜欢这无忧无虑生活。。还有人甚至会尝试改变每一天的生活让自己活地精彩一点。。。

每个人都有自己的生活的乐趣。。我也不例外。。偶尔驾驾车去"散步"。。跑个圈回来。。每次放工我都会这样做。。可能我想念我的车吧。。哈哈。。

最近在做工作还算不错，不过我必须努力加把劲进修。。因为我必须要跟别人同一条线，别人才会被看重。。我就在这自我介绍一下吧！
我是读Computer Engineering的。。但是我现在这份工是IT的。。所以我必须要进修。。我都是读那些Microsoft product的东西。。好像:Windows Server 2008, Exchange Server 2010, SharePoint Server 2010。。可能有些人会不懂这是什么来的=.="。。但这都是我要学的，目的是为了我自己开多一条出路啊~因为我读的Degree课程都是Programming那种Developer的工作的。。就是Design Microprocessor和Microcontroller的。。但是我知道我programming很差。。所以才出此下策咯~~

还有！还有！！
我呢今年24岁。。尚未有女朋友，176cm高，小孩子样，很好玩的。。什么八卦事我都想八一下的。。嘻嘻~

现在有心仪的对象，正在观察中。。^.^ 希望她不会拒绝我吧~。。我好怕好怕被人拒绝的。。:-(
所以我现在只是想慢慢地走进她的世界里。。认识她多点，想想她多一点。。虽然她都忙于工作，但是她都会尽量地找时间陪朋友。。和陪陪我的^.^嘻嘻~~

今天心情好。。我的housemate很好心地帮我煮个面一起吃。。哈哈。。
但愿她和他男友一起白头偕老噢，永远甜甜蜜蜜地过生活！！

希望我每一天都是好心情~~ =）

Monday 21 March 2011 - 又再是星期一。。

星期一的到来。。。那些工作人士又会带着很blue的心情去上班。。我也不例外。。哈哈！
我打工有七个月了。。。我有时会质问我自己我为何要打拼干活呢？赚钱为了什么呢？。。一时觉得我很笨问这样的问题，赚钱当然是要养活自己，养家人的嘛。。虽然我知道这个答案，但我还是觉得这样的人生很空虚。。。。孤单。。。
可能这个原因，跟朋友一起打发时间，一起有说有笑的。。当做唯一我人生的乐趣。。不过，不是每个人都能陪我打发时间，陪我说笑。。各人都有各自的事情要忙。。所以，最后也是会有孤单的时候。。。
我虽然朋友多，但是真正认识我，了解我的。。实在是很少，很少。。。

有人问我“为什么不在公司找个女朋友呢？”。。。我就说。。我不是不想找。。。而是没机会遇到。。如果有单身的，我也不会去追求。。因为我不要在同一间公司的。。没想到她也跟我一样想法。。。其实，我想说的是。。我的追求的对象是我已经了解的。。我熟悉的。。而且是跟我在一起不会感到压力的。。不管她有多少的缺点我也不介意。。。

说实话。。。过了那天。。不懂为什么会想到她。。。而且梦到她。。我该不会。。。已经陷入了陷阱？？。。。但是，她应该不会对我有任何的兴趣吧。。更何况是个大胖子。。=D

所以当前我必须努力〉〉〉瘦身。。好好调理身子。。感情事就先搁在一边吧。。过后才行动吧！！。。。

那天晚上很开心。。。能看到热气球和烟花。。尤其是跟我一个很好很好的女生朋友。。
原来。。她也有她可爱的一面的~~~嘻嘻！！真令我对她有大大的改观了。。。=）

Tuesday 8/03/2011 - 大家好吗？？

大家好吗？？。。
第一个话想说的。。很好奇地在想其他人都在干嘛的。。睡觉？玩电脑？听音乐？。。
现在都大了。。不能像以前，轻轻松松过时间。。工作，工作，工作。。不断地在工作。。
我现在很怀念那年轻的日子，娱乐，和最重要的〉〉朋友。。多日不见的朋友，你们过得好吗？=）我好想念你们哦！
好想跟你们一起玩。。一起笑。。一起聊天。。看着他们快乐，我也自然地很幸会。。无论我们各自在外打拼，偶尔一个朋友的信息来电也感到世界很充实。。不会觉得孤单一个人。

有个人。。。很极积地开导我，关心我，担心我。。虽然她人在远处，但我却感受到她的好意。。。就算我身处在人群中，同事之间。。我也会感到一丝孤单，寂寞感觉。。就算我们之间多么地热闹，有说有笑地。。那也只是表面的快乐。。哪儿会有人能真心关心一个人？认识才不久，关心太多会被人说八卦。。关心太少会被人认定对人很冷淡。。她不同。。这份友情，我会好好地珍惜。。

我在想。。人与人之间就不能真心对待？真心地关心，交朋友很难吗？
人人都必须带个面具来见人的吗？我很累。。累得去想别人会对我做什么事了。。
我只想要极积地。。真心地。。。善待别人。。不期望有任何回报，只想要。。你也可以真心地对待我就够了。。:)

今天第一天开工。。。

16.02.2011 星期三。。正式开工。。刚过完最无聊的假期~~。。而且又是个倒霉的日子。。
上个拜三，食物中毒。。折腾了半天才知道，真无辜。。(=.=")
自个儿起身驾车去看医生。。还差点撞车(@.@")..当时没力气又没人在家，只好硬着皮头一个人去看医生。。不然得等到晚上才有人回来。（到那时我可能已经疼痛死去了）。。
到了今天，肚子还是会疼。。搞到我没心情一整天>.<".....没胃口吃东西。。唉~~

今天没去想她。。就算想到也没辙儿。。。就傻傻地带过，当没想到。。就静静地做工。。不聊天。。。不说笑。。就这样地。。。安静看人说话。。朋友都说我伤心样。。也惯了。。说我闷闷不乐。。。也惯了。。。就笑笑地。。掩饰心情慢慢带过~~ 不认识我的。。就会说我很吊。。。我也惯了。。嘴巴是他的，要讲烂话就由他去。。

我就是不想讲话。。。。希望明天的到来，能我的心情焕然一新。。

Fav Quote: "我没有车，没有钱，没有房，只剩梦想~“

思念是一种病。。。

思念。。。不知多久了。。。我还是念念不忘。。

不知她还会思念着我吗？。。

最近忙于工作，和同事日对夜畅谈。。始终还是。。。心中有她的存在。。

为何。。始终还是放不下。。。我经常回想起过去。。那是多么地甜蜜，愉快的回忆。。

思念紧握着那滑嫩的小手。。一起散步。。

“无法深情挽着你的手，溅吻着你额头~~”