~What a Busy Friday~

Today is Friday~~ Supposed to be very relaxing~~ do some research...read some Microsoft readings materials..to spend my Friday work day...Mana tau~~~ ( = _ = )"....Got emergency task to do...

Haizz...make my Friday work mood all crashed =(... luckily i still managed to finish off and set my way to Midvalley meet my dad on time ( -^.^- )...*coz my dad hate people late* =D

Today is my father's belated special day...suppose is Wednesday celebrate his birthday but he busy can't make it and postponed to today.. lucky went well tonight...managed to eat dinner...watch movie...chit chat at Starbucks... =D

After that, 2nd round yum cha with my beloved colleagues at puchong..=) So, today i feel very fulfilling and happy about it...

And also.....I managed to chit chat with her today.. (^.^)....but hor, she seems like reluctant to talk with me...who knows~ maybe i too sensitive gua~~ Dun care anymore le~~

She is cute still...but, sometimes i can see she will silence for a moment while me and others are chit chating gila-gila...Maybe that's her true side of herself?? hmm...i wonder~

~My feelings stays still~

No matter how hard i try to convince myself "I do not like her~..she is just a one of my passby-er in my life.."...
My feelings towards her still strong and i can't help myself to peep on her whenever she's here...

Say me selfish or watever you want to call me....i have my own reasons to stop pursuit my lovely nicole~

I'm sorry Nicole...perhaps you didn't even know that i liked you..I'll d like remain it that way till i sort my problem out first.... Let me quietly look at you....see you smile....

Can't help it myself to grab you in my arm and say " Let me protect you from now on and love you with all my heart~ I love you"

What happened to me???

Did i changed? changed alot?....i kept asking myself...

i found out i do things that i don't usually do....why is it I behave this way??

I can't behave normal in front of her... what i can do is...ignore her? avoid her?

I can't think anymore...i choose to avoid instead...

Sorry my love... i can't move forward where i have my own reasons behind...