It's been more than 1 month since the last contact with her....and yet i still miss her...miss her voice...miss her hands...miss her face... dun know how was she right now.. is she ok? does anyone bullied her? does her frens give her a hard time? All of this i used to know it all from her, i like she shares things with me and i willing to listen and cheer her up...Now no more...perhaps it never will happen again in future..
She very naughty and yet i like it very much... like the way she 撒娇... i still remember... She likes to force me sing song to her where i don't usually sing at all in my entire life...Ok, maybe i lie a bit.. I do sing song sometimes when alone.. I enjoy singing and yet no balls to sing it to anyone... until she come in.. She keep forcing me to sing song to her and i told her i only good in english songs. (thought she will stop forcing me at that time)... and yet, she is ok with it and i'm forced to choose one and sing at public place (@.@)...At the end, i choose Adam Lambert - What do you want from me. After that, she gave a big hug and compliment my singing is good. That was the 1st person and 1st time in my life someone who compliment me. I'm really...really touched. Thank you Bibi~(o^.^o)...
But now no more....Separated....difficult decision for me to take... Really really hurt my feeling when i say "agree to break up"...and it also hurt me till now and don't know when it can stop.....stop piercing my heart..When i watch 海派甜心, it makes me remind of her...my beloved ex-gf....even some few songs also makes me think about her... I'm so suffer....suffer missing her whenever i was free... and yet not dare to ask her/call her because i knew she won't repick or pick up my calls... Stop hurting me anymore...please~~ i beg you~~ it's been hurting me every night ever since we break up.. i really don't know what to do....next day wake up back to normal and night come again...
A lots of things makes me remind of her... JJ songs... mashimaro cushion..my wallet... She likes pooh very much...Everytime i saw Pooh bear and it makes me think of her again..really love her vry much...although there is lots of little dislike things/habits, but i still want her...love her...care for her... i just want to love her with all i got and be her protector.. Why God likes to fool us? why so cruel?...please tell me why....
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